Firstly. Happy 2016 ! (sorry im late) 2015 had been a blast tho it was not my best year yet but lets hope 2016 is going to be one. Of course, needless to say, I've learnt so much in 2015. Family, friendships and also the important values throughout 2015. I don't know about you guys, but 2015 has been a pretty rough year for me. Starting from enrolling into Form 6, the pressure my teachers gave me, friendship issues, family issues, making decisions and many more. Despite all that, I managed to get through 2015 safely but emotionally tired.

Both good and bad things have happened to me last year but I eventually accepted it. Starting off with my friends, I have actually contemplated really long before writing this but believe me, it wasn't easy. I had left a few friends somewhere in mid November last year and their presence in my life have taught me so much of things and also its tiring to always be the one taking initiative yet be less appreciated. The most basic key to all relationships which is trust is important especially in friendship. I felt that I had not garnered their trust completely and they never told me what is really going on for eg; creating a whatsapp group when there's an existing one already.. like really ? They told me it was for gaming but since when did the gaming topic turn out to be talking behind my back ?! bullshit.

I've never felt this much of betrayal before and they tend to put a mask on or act differently in front of me while on my back they showed their true colors. I don't understand why can't they talk to me truthfully and letting me know my mistakes instead of leading me on you know, that kinda thing ?

They never sincerely apologize to me after I found out about getting back-stabbed thanks to my curiosity. In the first place, I tried to be positive after being told the purpose of the existence of another group but deep down inside, I knew something is off. You can tell if in a group of friends, you're tend to be left out of their conversations, walking behind, taking the initiative to start, the ignorance, the empty group chat which used to be noisy your phone could just died. I cried when I approached them the last time, they tend to brought up my past like its fun and judging me like that.

To clarify things to all of you, no one likes people talking about the past (especially since its already in the past) and people often mistaken that, because of stupid immature mistakes that had been done thus they forever thinks that you're the same person. like hello, people do change yet I'm only human. You chose to bring it up because you're forever living in the past & getting intimidated by my present? I had enough. I rather be alone. Not gonna start 2016 with these kind of stuffs so i'm gonna stop here.

Good things was I get to spent more time with my old friends, classmates, making new friends, going out more often, exploring some new things, getting to be independent, celebrating halloween for the first time, taste countless of good foods, learning that its okay to be alone. Don't need to have stuck-up friends or too many friends because at the end of the day, you only need a few close ones to your heart. Ok I feel like this post was mostly about friendship haha because it leaves an impact on me. Again. happy 2016 everyone and cheers ahead to a more joyous & blissful new year ! See you soon :)